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        shootingstar420  31, Female, California, USA - 72 entries
    13
    Jun 2007
    7:42 PM EDT
       

    I TRIED TALKING TO MY DAD TODAY BUT HE IS MAD AND DOESNT SPEAK TO ME I THINK ITS MY FAULT CAUSE I HEARD MY MOM SAYING THAT MY TIA ESTELLA SAID THAT WHO RULES MY MOM OR ME AND THAT REALLY OFENDED ME U KNOW WELL I HOPE HE TALKS TO US SOON CAUSE I LOVE MY DADDY
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        BiTtErSwEeT<3  31, Female, New York, USA - 8 entries
    13
    Jun 2007
    6:30 PM EDT
       

    NOMOREEEE SCHOOL!!!!!! omfg i am so happy. All this year i was waiting for this day...I didnt hug John he was hugging his "friend" thats name always flies away from my mind. I am going to the Public pool tomorrow and swim. Chris was flirting with me

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        SeeWhy  59, Female, West Virginia, USA - 41 entries
    13
    Jun 2007
    6:22 PM EDT
       

    Okay, so the other night I was getting ready for bed. I was telling my oldest goodnight. She was laying on the coach and trying to talk me into stay8ing up to watch a movie. The husband came downstairs and saw me sitting next to my daughter. He proceeds to say....."Are you two lesbian lovers or something" I automatically felt rage. I said to him...."THIS IS MY DAUGHTER...do you understand that!!! My daughter...what is wrong with you!!! He says "There are some sick people in the world" I said...are you calling me a sick person? He made me soooo mad. Then I just told him to stop talking...just to not say another word to me. I got up and went to bed. He came upstairs and sat on the bed...put his hand on my head and said....I think youre a lesbian baby. I took his hand off of my head and said....Please dont talk to me again. Dont ever say that to me again. I turned over and went to bed. The next day...(yesterday) I started thinking...maybe that is my way out...maybe if I say....Yep, I think you are right after thinking about it for a while...I think I am in fact a lesbian and I think I need to explore that so I think we better part ways....That is what I want to say when I go upstairs to bed after I write this. I want to have the courage to just outright say that. Will I be able to...I doubt it...but oh how I want to. Maybe even say..."and I want to thank you for helping me figure that out. I truly appreciate it...now pack your things"
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        eliana3214  29, Female, Singapore - 5 entries
    13
    Jun 2007
    4:52 AM EDT
       

    Yes...im playing Flyff!!I read alot about and i guess i should try it out!!it's quite fun but VERY addictive!!!I got a little help from somebody(if somebody asks who is it then i will tell).I dragged Stacia to play it too.So sad her download is not done so she cant play...

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        shootingstar420  31, Female, California, USA - 72 entries
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    Jun 2007
    4:12 PM EDT
       

    wel my parents are stil mad at each other and they dont talk to each other and im gonna c omar i hope he can lighten my day i dont have much to say
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        charlax  71, Male, Arizona, USA - 744 entries
    13
    Jun 2007
    12:36 AM MST
       

    iff they aer lucky they read my stuffins
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        ronowen  70, Male, Texas, USA - 114 entries
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    Jun 2007
    12:01 PM CST
       

    Wednesday, June 13, 2007 - 7:00 p.m.
    Ron had a slight fever yesterday; however, his vitals remained good throughout the day today. He is still moving his eye brows and opening his eyes to track objects around the room.
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        Zen150  30, Female, Colorado, USA - 2 entries
    12
    Jun 2007
    8:02 PM EDT
       

    Hio,
    My name is Nikki im 12 years old yes im a girl I love anime and I wish to speak japanease and im not the best speller so please dont lecture me about it I love to listen to music Metal mostly =] im not what you would call a normal girl im very weird and I get hyper alot I <3 candy all except the jaw breaker because I have a hard time with out swallowing them hole and I choke over them.My favorite song is Cupids Chokehold by gym class heros and thats all about be pretty much if you want to know anything about me send me a question and i'll write you back!
    ~Nikki~
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        Holly  53, Female, New York, USA - 42 entries
    12
    Jun 2007
    8:42 AM EDT
       

    Owwww... I am in sooo much pain! I can barely walk, and it is agony to climb the stairs.Pat stayed home from work because I was crying this morning. I don't cry easily. I called my doc but she wasn't in. I will see another doctor in that practice this afternoon. I am nervous about that. I don't know what this other doctor is like. I don't really trust doctors. But I need one today.
    I played my guitar for about a half hour this morning, and it helped. As long as I can still play I will be ok.
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        auxilary25  41, Female, California, USA - 32 entries
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    Jun 2007
    5:35 PM EDT
       

    I'm so confused as to whether I'm being too harsh and selfish in the decisions I'm making towards alienating myself from my mom. My mother and I have never had a close relationship; we've never discussed anything personal. My mom always overreacts and turns everything I tell her against me. I've tried to make my mother happy in every way possible and all I've ever asked is for her to show me some trust.
    As a teenager my mom never let me go out with friends nor my boyfriends because she always assumed that I would end up doing something "irresponsible" even though she really had nothing to lead her to that conclusion. I was always the girl that was left out of the events because I couldn't attend the sleepovers or the weekend trips to the movies as all the other girls on my colorguard team. My 11th grade year my mom made me miss out on my boyfriends senior prom and any time I went to the movies with him there she was by my side.
    I thought that now that I'm in college my mom would lighten up and give me some breathing room but this isn't so. Instead, she still calls me 24/7 asking me where I'm at and where I plan to go. It irritates her that I'm with my boyfriends family sometimes during the weekend instead of home with her. To her "I'm just driving around" is never an acceptable answer as to where I'm at because she assumes that I'm out somewhere fucking my boyfriend. If my boyfriend comes over and stays until late she complains of the late hours that we are spending and how we don't let HER go to sleep because she can't fall asleep knowing my bf is in the house and could do anything with me when she goes to bed.
    Whenever my bf and I cook for my mom she doesn't utter us a simple thank you or the food was great as another grateful mother should. Instead, she complains about the time the food was served, whether it was seasoned according to her spice preference, and whether or not the portion size was too small or too much. If I come home "late" she won't even say good-night back when I pass by her room and tell her "nite" and she ignores me whenever I say hello after coming in from jogging with my boyfriend at night.
    I know and understand that my mother is a single mom and being stuck home alone isn't enjoyable for her. I understand that she wishes to have a companion so that she can take her mind off the loneliness every once in a while and I would GLADLY love to take my mother out but everytime I do there is just this tremendous awkward silence in the air. As we are dining all we can do is stare around and make comments about the restaurants service or the same repeated family gossip. When we go to the movies I feel extremely uncomfortable and not wanting her there because I find it unfair that now I have to take her to the movies because I'm understanding towards her yet I never was allowed to attend movies with my friends because she couldn't be understanding towards me.
    I don't enjoy being in the same room with her because she always has to keep looking at me investigating what it is that I'm doing and asking a million questions about the tasks that I may be performing to make sure "I do them correctly." It bothers me that she always asks "why"..."why do you want to go to your cousins house".."why are u visiting your sisters".,."why are you going to your boyfriends house"..."why are you 2 going to sit in the car parked".."why are you going to school on a Saturday"..."why are you going to wash your car"..."why are you doing laundry today if you don't have 2 loads to wash"...GOD! I feel like yelling WHY THE HELL NOT!!??? BECAUSE I WANT TO!! That's WHY! Because I just feel like doing so...no reasoning behind it needed!
    But everytime that I start acting harsh..whenever I leave her dinner in the kitchen all done so that she has to serve herself adn can't watch my boyfriend and I cook, everytime I silence my phone and decide not to answer her calls, everytime I leave EVERYTHING orgazined and I'm one step ahead so that she can't complain, everytime I avoid making any eye contact or even being home at the same time she is...THAT is when she decides to play the nice card..."the food was great...thank you for this or she just gives up complaining and gives me the silent treatment..
    Why can't she just be this way whenever I'm not harsh? Why does it take such negative behavior and grotesque ways for her to appreciate what I do and make an effort to be nice? Why is it that then I end up feeling like a monster for a day...but the minute I lower my guard she's up criticizing me again stressing me out, giving me headaches, and leaving me in tears at the end of the night? Unfortunately, as a 21 year old college student I can't move on my own which seems the only solution to this tormenting problem. If I would, I'd have to say good-bye to my brand new car because it would be impossible for me to affort my monthly payment and the insurance bill. I would have to move back my estimated graduation from summer 2008 to summer 2009 because of the fewer classes I would be taking since I'd prob have to work fulltime to support myself. Plus I'd prob have to move away to another city because it is IMPOSSIBLE for me to afford my own apartment in this city.
    I've been tempted so many times to just take a chug of alcohol right before my mom gets home that way I can take anything she sends my way lightly...but after an old therapist of mine warned me that my "home environment" could one day cause me an addiction I have fought against doing it...
    AM I being dramatic? Is this emotional abuse more barable than I'm actually saying it is?
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